I am now two days out from when I leave for Kenya, Africa! It has been such an emotional roller coaster preparing for this adventure. The emotions have ranged from estatic to fearful! Emotional about leaving my husband and daughter stateside while I go to a foreign land in which I have never been and have only seen pictures of. Wondering if I will be accepted? Wondering if I will be safe, healthy, happy I went, sorry I went...it goes on and on. You know the mind can be a very dangerous place if we allow ourselves to go there!
Why am I going to Kenya?
Mainly because I beleive that God said go... I want nothing more in my life than to please God, yet this is one of the biggest struggles of my life. My flesh wants to please itself and enjoy what the world has to offer. My spirit inside of me longs for the things of God. The desires that I believe he has placed in me, like going to a foreign land to love and share my experiences with God. Not my "American" experiences with God, people in third world countries can't benefit from that. I am thankful that I was born in America and I have the benefits of a great job, home, clothing, food on the table and I know God has provided ALL of that for me. I am talking about how God loves me, how is sustains me, gives me hope, heals me, comforts me and even is hard on me at times all because he loves me. The message of how he loves us all and wants us to have a relationship with him. He created us for him!!! The message of God is about LOVE!!! NOT prosperity!!! God could careless about what I wear, what I drive, how much money I have in the bank...he cares about my heart...is it pure, is it right with him...these are things that I believe transcend cultural boundaries. This is why I go...to share God's love.
What does that look like to me?
To me sharing God's love doesn't mean I have to go overseas, I should be doing it right here where I live in America. It is serving someone else and putting their needs above my own. On this trip for me it will be serving food to children, building, harvesting crops, working along side of the people I will meet. Most of all, just being there, available to be used however God wants to use me...