"What goes around comes around"
"You reap what you sow"

I have a friend who tells me that she wants to live her life knowing that when she lays her head down at night she can sleep face up, knowing she didn't hurt or wrong anyone. I think this is pretty profound. Perhaps something to live by?

In retrospect, I know there have been people in my life that I have hurt, some intentionally, most unintentionally. I have bold faced lied to some. There have been people I have dug up dirt on to exploit to others. To say the very least I am so ashamed of these actions. I wish I could go to each person and ask for their forgiveness, I am so thankful that I have been forgiven by God and that his grace covers my life. Now that I am older I don't intentionally victimize like I did in my younger years. I don't feel the need for self-preservation or building up walls to protect me.

With all of that put out there, I am realizing that I have been a victim too. There have been people who have hurt me, abused me and made horrible accusations against me. In life we have all been on both sides of this.

So is this just a simple case of "what goes around comes around?"
"you reap what you sow". Growing up as Christian I always thought that was a positive saying,. Do good and you will prosper or you will receive blessings. What a line of $&*!. God doesn't owe me ANYTHING!!! I OWE HIM EVERYTHING (but that is another story). And now that I am older I realize it works both ways. "YOU reap what YOU sow!!!" I watch it happening all around me, not only to myself but others I know. People who hurt me, I see similiar pains coming back to them. Is there a way we can prevent this vicious cycle from happening? Or is this just a part of our human nature we will have to endure while living and breathing?

Well this was just a random thought...just putting it out there...maybe I will come back in a few days with a bit more clarity...or maybe not...
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